Molly... I think she has cheated on me again. She is acting really weird. She would rather spend time all day and night at these guys apartments. She doesn't show any love or care in her voice towards me on the phone. Now, I thought I was over reacting but just as I get done asking her about it, a guy walks in and she goes "HEY!!!! HOW ARE YOU!?" She sees him all the time and talks with him all day, but with me, it's like she would rather NOT be on the phone.

Does she even care about me anymore? If she does, then why don't I have the girlfriend I have always had untill recently? I think guilt is building up inside of her. If she is infact cheating on me, I hope she gets what is coming to her. I hope she looses everything that she at one time held sacred. I hope she realizes she is being such a slut. If she isn't cheating on me... I hope she realizes she is about to loose me. If she doesn't change soon, I don't know if I can stay with her. It's as if I am just this chain holding her down, when she is trying to be free.

Is she really being selfish? Wanting to have fun and be free and premiscuous, but being so selfish she doesn't want me to do the same? That's not love... that's greed and selfishness. I heard something from a friend of hers. She thinks they are friends, but he honostly can't stand her. He says, she has had a new cock every day. He and their other high school class mate are taking bets on her. But, she thinks it's so cool to be wanted by half the guy population. It prolly turns her on. My gawd... she is such a... UGH. WHY CAN'T SHE JUST ME DEDICATED AND HONOSTLY QUIT THINKING WITH HER FUCKING CUNT! JESUS CHRIST. I HATE THIS. I wish sometimes I never lost Charity... Charity wouldn't put me through this. That is why she broke up with me... so she wouldn't do this to me. Charity, I was wrong... forgive me. I finally understand why you did that to me so long ago. Because you did love me. Molly... if she does love me... she will show it and protect us with all her soul, heart and mind.